=D

I am going to completely and utterly destroy my younger brother.  =]

If I don’t lose my mind first.

My December

I was at the mall with my boyfriend and in need of a short bathroom break.  I looked up from the sink and saw my reflection in the mirror.  And, when I saw myself, I thought: Wow.  I look really good.

I’ve never thought that about myself before.  I never, ever thought I was pretty.  People tell me, but I never believed them.  Well, I did once, but that ended up being a mistake and a half.  So beyond that, I’ve never believed a word anybody said – whether it was Desiree, Jasmine, or Lacey, three of my friends, whether it was my mother, or even if it was my boyfriend.

And certainly my ex-boyfriend never made me feel attractive.

But my boyfriend isn’t the one who made me feel this way.  It was more… it felt like it came from me.  Those kinds of feelings have never come from me before, but I think it had to… and now I feel like I’m strong enough to face this new year that’s encroaching upon me.