I said I’d moved on and I’ll leave it alone,
But before I walk out there is something that I need you to know:
I got lost in a blink of an eye,
And I can never get back – no, I’ve never got back.
You were not there when I wanted to say
That you were everything that right and it wasn’t you but me that changed
Now I got to go it alone,
But I’ll never give up, no I’ll never give up
You know what? I can’t trust anybody.
At all.
So I should just kind of give up on life.
But I’m stubborn.
So I won’t.
What am I fighting for?
There must me something more
For all these words I sing,
Do you feel anything?
I just had about five different people betray me in five different ways. How did I ever think of them as friends? It turns out that the only people who actually are my friends are people I never felt that close to in the first place. I find that amazing.
And I can’t trust anybody. Ever again.
I said I’m ok but I know how to lie
You were all that I had,
You were delicate and hard to find
I got lost in the back of my mind,
And I can never get back, no I’ve never got back
You were not there when I needed to say
I hit the bottom so fast that my head was spinning ’round for days
Now I gotta go it alone
But I will never give up, no, I’ll never give up
So it’ll be my mission to lie a lot now. And I mean a lot. Because I walked into this school year with no best friend – he ditched me – and no friends, period.
Plus, I thought there were people I could trust. Turns out there’s nobody.
You know what? Fuck you. I TRUSTED YOU. You turned around and stabbed me in the fucking back. What kind of friend are you, anyway? I don’t need you. Nobody needs a friend like you.
What am I fighting for?
There must me something more
For all these words I sing
Do you feel anything?
Everything I do feels useless. Everything I say bites back. Everyone I meet eventually finds me worthless.
The only solution? Meet new people. Never stop meeting new people and doing new things. Never trust anybody. Never fall for anybody. Never, ever trust a best friend with a boyfriend. And never let anybody see things going on inside.
What am I fighting for?
What am I fighting for….
It feels like I’ve been losing my mind. I’ll never get any sleep tonight.
Never give up on this [x4]
I’m not giving up on myself. I’m not giving up on my life. Yeah, I thought about killing myself today, but for about five minutes. I won’t kill myself, I won’t hurt myself, I’ll just do what I do – write – and forget about everybody and everything else. Nobody is worth the words. Nobody is worth my writing or the writing of any of the amazing authors I love to read.
And if they aren’t worth the words, they aren’t worth my attention.
Said I’m ok but I know how to lie -
But I will never give up, no I’ll never give up
Yeah, I’ll be depressed for a while. I’ll be upset.
Because it’s hard not to be.
But when it gets down to the matter, I’m kind of stubborn. I will not give up on anything. I’ll never give up on myself. I never give up on my friends. That’s gotten me into the trouble I’m in, but it’s also kept somebody alive who was worth everything to me.
No giving up.
What am I fighting for?
There must me something more
For all these words I sing
Do you feel anything?
I’m finally finding the things that are worth it. I’m finally finding out who I am and why I am the way I am.
I am fighting to be who I am, and I’m fighting for my right to be adult. I will never be a child again, and I don’t want to be. FUCK YOU.
What am I fighting for? (No I’m never gonna give up, give up)
What am I fighting for? (No I’m never gonna give up, give up)
Nothing is worth it anymore. Nothing. I have no friends. I have nobody to trust. I don’t care anymore. All I want is to write. Nothing more.
Said that I’d fight for the one that I’ve found
I’m gonna stay here while I wait for you to come around.
I fight: you’re apart of me now,
And I will never give up, no I’ll never give up!
